My bro is number 2 (I'm behind the camera)

Smothered

Inside this skin,
I don't seem to quite fit in.
Being myself,
Sometimes requires a little help.
I don't fit the standards of this town.

My hair's too dark,
My skin's too light.
Please, let's not start.
Youre rules are much too tight.
I refuse to conform.

Open Arms

I am ready to shower you with love.
I welcome you with open arms.
You will be my pride and joy,
I will be your courage and strength.

You will fear no more, my child.
I will protect and guide you.
My voice will call your name,
You shall not recoil.

You may sleep peacefully now.
I will love you as my own.
You will learn to trust and live.
Come near and rest.

"R.K. On Death"

Take death for example. A great deal of our effort goes into avoiding it. We make extraordinary efforts to delay it and often consider its intrusion a tragic event. Yet we'd find it hard to live without it. Death gives meaning to our lives. It gives importance and value to time. Time would become meaningless if there were too much of it.If death were indefinitely put off, the human psyche would end up, well, like the gambler in the "Twilight Zone" episode. -Our Lady Peace

Me and My Jewel : )

The Beginning of a Great Memoir

Yea! I am starting another semester of school tomorrow. I can't wait. At the rate I'm going I will be going to Michigan State in Fall of 2008. Shazamm! I just really hope I get (if any) a good room mate. As long as we can stand each other, I'll be happy. I do feel , though, for some reason , that I am wasting time. I don't know why, I just feel like I should be doing more, or could be doing more. Have you ever eaten chocolate chip waffles at Waffle House at 11:00p.m.? Now that is a wonderful feeling. One of those times when you could have just jumped out of a bestseller on the front shelf at Borders or Barnes and Noble or something. It helps if you're there alone, which I was not. Or if there are a couple of truckers at the counter, which there was not. Maybe a tired, young couple wearing pajamas, which there was, but minus the pajamas. Ok, maybe a paperback at the checkout at Rite Aid.

Me, totally butchering Cannon in D in May of last year.

55 questions

What did I do wrong? Where did I take a wrong turn? What did I do to deserve this? How did I offend you? Where did the 'you' I knew go to? Where were you? What were you thinking? Why won't you talk to me? Do I still mean anything to you? Do you still love me? Do you care about me at all? What did I say to offend you? What did I not say? What did I not do? What is wrong with me? Did you really mean all that you told me for six months? Do you still mean it? What do I owe you? How can I heal from this? Will you want me back? Did you mean to hurt me? How long were you brewing this? Did someone else tell you to do this? Is this what was supposed to happen? Was it meant to be this way? Were we ever meant to be together? How can I let you know how I feel? Will I ever see you again? Will you find someone else? Can you forgive me? Will you let me apologise? Will I ever be able to forgive you? Can you make the hurt go away? Do you know what you did? Do you know what you're doing to me? Do I matter anymore? Am I not worthy? Am I stupid? Am I ugly? Am I a devil? Will you expect me to understand? Will I ever know what went wrong? Will I want to know? Did I hurt you in any way? Was this happening all along, and I just never knew? Was I too overpowering? Was I too cold? Was I breaking your heart all along? Am I ever going to get myself back? Will I ever recover from this? Will I ever be able to trust anyone again? Did I waste my time? Does this hurt you too? What did I do wrong?

Are You Really Gone?

How could it be, that you went away so fast?
How did this happen, without reference to our past?
Oh! How much it hurts me.
Why, why can I not just let it be?
Can you really just sweep away all these memories?
Discard every touch, smile, kiss.....as you please?
I gave you my trust, respect, my heart.
And now it seems you were only playing a part.
Is all that you told me still true?
Either way I don't think I could believe you.

Cool Songs (according to me)

AC/DC:Back in Black, Hell's Bells, Highway to Hell, Rock and Roll/Adema:The Way You Like It/Aerosmith:Dream On/Alice Cooper:No More Mr.Nice Guy/Alice in Chains:Down In A Hole, Man In The Box/Apartment 26:Give Me More/Atomship:Pencil Fight/Audiovent:The Energy/Blind Melon:No Rain/Blur:Song No. 2/Bon Jovi:Cowboy, It's My Life/Boy Hits Car:Man Without Skin/Bread: Everything I Own/Breaking Benjamin:Polyameraus, Skin/Cake:The Distance/Caroline's Spine:Sulivan/Cher:Life After Love/Clutch:Careful With That Mic/Cold:End of the World, Gone Away, Bleed/Collective Soul:Spit Me Out/Crazy Town:Butterfly/Days of the New:Shelf in the Room/Deadsy:Brand New Love/Deftones:Change/Dope:Spin Me Round/The Eagles:Hotel California/Eminem:Lose Yourself, Till I Collaspe/Everclear:Sanimonica, Wonderful/Everlast:What it's Like, Ends/Eve 6:Inside Out/Evanescence:My Immortal, Missing/Filter:Where Do We Go From Here?/Fuel:Hemhorage In My Hands, Innocent, Shimmer/Godhead:Eleanor Rigby/Godsmack:Awake/Goo Goo Dolls:Iris/Greenday:Minority, Time Of Your Life/Hed PE:Bartender/HIM:Wings of a Butterfly/Incubus:Drive/Injected:What Did You Sell Your Soul For?/Gary Jewels:Mad World/Kid Rock:Only God Knows Why/KMFDM:Leid Und Elend/Korn:Word Up/Led Zepplin:Stairway To Heaven/Limp Bizkit:Behind Blue Eyes,Take a Look Around/Linkin Park:In The End(Remix), My December, Papercut/Live+Tricky:Simple Creed/Living Color:Cult of Personality/Local H:Bound For The Floor/Marilyn Manson:Dope Show,sweet Dreams/Maroon 5:This Love/Ricky Martin:Livin La Vida Loca, Nobody Wants To Be Lonely/Matchbox 20:Push, Real World, 3A.M./Don McClaine:American Pie/Metallica:Nothing Else Matters,The Unforgiven, The Unforgiven Too/Nickleback:How You Remind Me/Stevie Nicks:Landslide/The Offspring:Get a Job, The Kids Aren't Alright, Gone Away, Original Prankster/Orgy:Dreams in Digital/Our Lady Peace: Life, Superman's Dead/Ozzy Osborne:Crazy Train, Dreamer, Mr. Crowley/Pantera:Cemetery Gate/Peal Jam:Black, Where oh Where Did My Baby Go?/A Perfect Cirlcle:Passive/Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers: Mary Jane's Last Dance/Pink:Family Portrait/Pink Floyd:Wish You Were Here, Shine On You Crazy Diamond(Parts 1-7)/POD and Santana:America/The Prom Kings:Alone/Puddle of Mudd:She Hates Me/Queen: We Will Rock You/Ra:Do Call My Name/Rammstein:Mutter/Red Hot Chili Peppers:Aeroplane, Californication, Breaking The Girl, Road Trippin, Under The Bridge/REM:Everybody Hurts, At My Most Beautiful, Immitation of Life/Saliva:Always, Click Click Boom/Semi Sonic:Closing Time/Seether:Driven Under/Seven Mary Three:Cumbersome, Water's Edge/Shaggy:Angel/Shine Down:45/Skid Row:18 and Life/Smashing Pumpkins:Disarm/Smashmouth:Walking On The Sun/Soil:Unreal/Stabbing Westward:What Do I Have To Do?, Angel/Staind with Fred Durst:Outside/Stone Sour:Bother, Inhale/Stone Temple Pilots:Sour Girl/Sugar Cult:Pretty Girl/Switchfoot:Meant To Live/Sytematic:Deep Colors Bleed/ Three Doors Down:Duck and Run, Kriptonite, Loser/Tool:Skism/The Union Underground:Killing The Fly/UPO:Godless/Verve Pipe:Freshman/Vertical Horizon:Everything You Want/Whitesnake:Here I Go Again/Bill Withers:Lean On Me/Rob Zombie:Living Dead Girl