Oblivion.

I want oblivion.

Straylight Run: Existentialism on...

By Kate Gubert

"When the sun came up, we were sleeping in,
sunk inside of blankets, sprawled across the bed."

When the sun came up, you were sleeping with your arm flung across my sunken belly. I was cold and kept awake by the stench of vomit.

"And we were dreaming. There are moments when I know it. And the world revolves around us."

The dream somehow escaped me; and knowledge and feeling rose from me as an essence from my being. I revolved around you and hid my bruises.

"And we're keeping it, keeping it all going.. this delicate balance. Vulnerable. All knowing."

Somewhere between when I pushed you away and when I called you back you misunderstood my apology. You tore down the walls of my Almighty and sucked my remains through a straw.

"(Sing like you think no one's listening.)"

You opened the curtains and let the light of a thousand eyes burn through my parched skin. You laughed at my appearance...and went back to sleep.

"We're glad for what we've got.
Done with what we've lost.
Our whole lives laid out right in front of..."

You were satisfied with what you had taken from me: what I offered to you. Another soft drop on your lips as I looked at you; so sad and delicate.

"Sing me anything."

The Evolution of Pain

I want to show you.
I wanted to have you see me
exposed and without disclaimers.

I wanted you to understand,
to look at me with pellucid eyes;
offering your protection.

I wanted to explain my imperfections:
this one- anger
this one-fear
this one-abandon.

I wanted you to tell me
it was ok to be angry,
that you could calm my fear,
that you would never leave,
but you were already gone.

I never had the chance to show you-

this one I call pain.

by: Kate Gubert

Earshot: Someone

And if you could make up
For every single time you lied
I'd probably whisper this
Hello, goodbye
And so it begins again
Harder each and every time
I start to reminisce
I never seem to ever find

[chorus]
Someone I can trust
Someone I believe
Someone who will never try
To bring me to my knees
Someday I will find again
Someone just like me
Someone who will take the time
In understanding me

And if I could make up
For every single tear you cried
I'd probably never miss
Your hand in mine
I never could understand
Mistakes I repeat again
I've been through this so many times
I never seem to ever find

And I've stopped searching
To take my time
And to really clear my head
And I believe it was meant to be
And I feel it's time to go

And if you could make up
For every single time you lied
I'd probably whisper this
I never seem to ever find