I am seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold, I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old, I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight, I cannot believe I lost control of my fate, I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about, I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I am gonna win, I can't afford to blow this one, I hate myself sometimes, I love myself, I need this way of life because it holds me. contradictions the way of life happiness is wealthyness is healthy now I've made it through those lies and deceit, I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore i am sure, now that I've found myself again it feels great I can't believe I'd lost control of my fate.
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How can I take control of my fate? How can I direct my life through God and all that is good, and ignore all that is evil? Sometimes it is so hard to decern what is good and what is bad. I guess that's what's so hard about getting older; not everything is 'yes' or 'no' anymore. You have to learn to adapt to having grey, not just black and white. It's so frusturating! I like everything to be clear cut and have straight lines and set bounderies. I like that comfort of being sure.
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glad to hear you're doing well. the book is Illusions by Richard Bach. hope you like it!
Hey girly I have never heard such true lyrics. Growing up is tough I know! Im living proof right? Thanks for being there for me anyways! Sorry if I caused you pain I would never do it on purpose.Growing up requires change some good and maybe some bad. But hey we all learn our lessons right? I just wish life wasnt so tough,you know? Thanks Again! I don't know what I'd do with out you! I love you!!!!!!
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