I can not believe how much my life has changed, and I keep wondering if I am the only one who notices this. Am I just spinning in one place inside of myself or do others see that I am not stationary? I am in need of good literature and time to read it. I am in need of something longer, for sure, and tangible. I am in need of no worries and I life that I can live for everyone the same. I am in need of something that will let the words form beyond the recognition of my own brain and allow me to speak them to you in all honesty and freedom.

How do I know of turning points in my life? Should I accept such sweet invitations, or are they merely sugar coated? Is there more growing up to do? When do I recognize these things and if they are true and right? The biggest problem is knowing who to believe. Deciding who is the person to follow who will lead you to the straight path. Why must people insist on what you should do if they are only looking out for themselves? Does anyone really know someone well enought to be telling them how to live their lives?

I don't think it is wrong to make choices and sacrifices in your life to better the life of someone else. I believe it is admirable to give in order for others to recieve, to not be selfish and to think of others before yourself. What I want really holds no meaning in my life. Fulfilling my desires and dreams will not make me a better person.

What is desire? What is good desire and should it be sought/satisfied?

Do certain things have meaning if you yourself do not place meaning on them?

WHY CAN'T YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING????